I have been able to be open to whatever comes next. 
To taste and to live in the moment. To notice what kind of person I really am. 
To have my own likes and dislikes.
But then it felt companionless
This lonesome lead to the need of companionship. 
To have someone I could talk about nonsense



Something came. I ain't dare to predict, interpret or judge or even trying to find an answer. 
The reason of why does it came. 
Refusal is the best way to deal with it.
As day goes by it become stronger.
The more I do not wanna think about it, the more the self wonder.


Who wanna fall to the same hole? Over and over again?
It can not stay, because it seals chances. 
It close to the possibility to whatever comes next.
It makes oneself loss its appeal.
Once again, as the day goes by, it become stronger.


What should I do?

I have been able to be open to whatever comes next. 
But I have not been able to letting it go to get everything done.