atmos fear-ing

HAHAHAHAHAHHA i just want to laugh :):)

i have so much fun today, like unexpected thing happe

n but still F-U-N though. i went to FX today with my girls 

and we went atmosfear-ing. it was so fun, remembered that we had just have a chemistry test which was really fucking hard. from 5 essays, i only did no 5 and 2, but still not sure with 2c, 2d, and 2e. and screw the multiple choices hahaha. only sure for one answer from 10 questions. but quite satisfied with my biology sco

re, i got 90,5 peps. woke up at 2.30am worth it anyway <3

                     We got 2 tickets peps! by the way my forehead is NGGA SANTAI!

So Dyla got 10 free tickets for atmosfear, then here 

we are getting ready to slide. lol. too bad dyla couldn't come because she is sick. ayie also. she had to meditate because her sister is pissed and stressing her out. There were 7 of us so there will be 3 tickets left. so we 'hompimpa alaium gambreng breng breng' to decide who will go twice. then me, tasya and nisa got the second ticket. just like winning golden ticket from wonka bar lol. but stupidly, nisa put the second ticket on top of nowhere a.k.a gone, so she couldn't go for the second time. lol

and dhira got scratch on her knee. poor dhira.

i want to make it rhymes

don't make me tired of you, 'cause i don't want to.

you keep me waiting, unsure with my own feeling

at first it was so sweet, but then it turned like shit

everything seems so fine, what makes you change your mind?

feel like we're in the air now, don't be, or i'll never say the vow 

by the time we meet, it feels awkward i bet

still dying to hold your hand, feels like hit by hurricane

confusing pathway

being 10 grader is the most challenging time in my life, because at that time, i have to start choosing a pathway. so here's the thing. Not like any other school that only have 2 pathways, science and social, my school divide them into 5 pathways. Those are: Biology, Physics, Economic, Humanities, and art. The problem is i get confuse in choosing between Biology, economic and humanities. First i think humanities would be fit for me because i'm a social person, but then my mother doesn't allow me for choosing humanities pathway. i'm not sure what's the reason but i think she thought that it such a waste of time. I mean with ability and brain i have right now, it would be better if i'm taking science pathway. But i've been deleting physic from my list since forever. It just i'm not really good at physic. So what has left are biology and economy. I was thingking that i don't really have interest in Biology, i mean i love the subject, but disecting animal is so a big no no. So i'm positive for economy pathway. But then i relize that actually why am i choosing economy pathway it just becasue it is easier. i don't have to memorize things. don't have to meet new terminologies. so it is actually my laziness that i should deal with. oh god please tell me which pathway should i choose......

Drakkar Noir

                                                              " The power of seeing "

29, january 2009   21.27

i was walking down the hall way

i wasn't dare to look straight forward

'cause i know, you were there, staring, right in front of me

your excessive perfume which i inhale deeply

mixing with the smell of cigarette. 

i was repeating your name in my head over and over again 

for a hundred time, you attract me, lift me to the highest level of my imagination

many things i want to tell you, and it wasn't the first time i saw you,

but the moment we face each other, 

everything turns into blur and there's only one word in my head

feel like we don't need a word

'cause when you look me in the eye everything feel so clear

even though i have to stop my feet from being shaking so hard,

control my heart for pumping to loud

and swab my palm from sweating heavily :)

*Picture: Robbyp.deviantart.com

focus

wooaaaa it's really hard for me lately to have full concentration on paying attention in every subject. i don't know why but daydreaming is the priority thing to do lately. which actually really bad. 

A thing distract me and force me to fly away from the reality. hahaha lol. i don't even know what was i thinking. worse because i couldn't understand the lesson, even SSIL (Study Skill for Independent Learning) that suppose to be the easiest subject. comparing to the first semester where i used to have big curiosity on the subjects, i even asked many unimportant questions which actually worth and increasing my understanding. 

but now even though i try to concentrate my mind will go away somewhere leave my body. let it sat with a blank sight. gosh i wish i could have my first semester spirit back. amiiin cheers ara :)

still awake

     18 january, 2009   12:17 am

"i cant pretend i don't care when you don't think about me"

i can't sleep unless you've said goodnight.

it felt way annoying lately 

that my bedtime is depending 

on when are you going to text me 

and said 'goodnight'. 

i know it sounds corny but i can't deny it. it's true

Intro

Hey my name is sarah adipayanti but you can call me ara for sure.  Enough for the brief explanation. So here I am, writing on my own blog. So lately I get a bit melancholy, and I write several poems in facebook’s note which then was commenting by abet with so not important critic,  and annoyingly annoyed me. Then friend of mine suggest me to make my own blog. actually this isn’t my first, I’ve make once before but I think it was a bunch of trash so I start it all over again. Cheers : )

Since my linguistic skill is improve, I decide to write in English, yeah bilingual maybe. Hahaha so please enjoy : )  and sorry for keep saying ‘so’ all the time. Lol 

                     Me (left) and Tasya (right)

you might wanna check her blog : anastascha.blogspot.com